loved?????

Today something shocked me, i said "i love you" and they asked "do you mean it?"

i never expected that question, i didn't know what to answer.

What is love?

this question has been on the people's mind more than the question of "who is God?"

Love... 4 letters that are so significant and so heavy.

You can't say that you love if you dont.

it's not like saying Hello!

a few days ago i wrote "3 years ago"...

as hard as it seems to believe, when i wrote that, tears fell in my keyboard and mouse pad.

because... i thought i "loved"

"love" "loving" "loved"

there shouldn't even be a "loved" word.. if you love once you love forever.

so the word "loved" is stupid, nonsense ignorant word.

you cant stop loving, other wise you never felt love, you felt a strong emotion.

and emotions aren't love, love is love, emotion is emotion.

you see... love is so strong the Bible compares it with God!... what else is compared with God? NOTHING! only love!

so if love is God, and God is love... i don't know what love is to be honest

i once said to a girl, love is giving all of you, accepting people the way they are bla bla bla bla bla...

NOT! love is that joint that makes you stay together for years, the one that makes you have a new conversation every day and never get bored of that person. Love is accepting the fact that your heart, eyes and all of you is joined (does not belong!), is joined to another persons life, fusionate with someone else, rather than sexual way, in a spirit way.

I really want to clear that word Love, if i said love and today we dont even speak any more... i never did

If i say Love and i speak with you, i dont love you, i really appreciate you, you must be very special in my life

clarify the word Love in your life too

3 years ago

3 years ago i thought i was happy

3 year later i think i am

3 years ago you smiled and said it's forever

3 years later my smile is inverted and i say now it's never

3 years ago we made a promise

3 years later there is no way for you to break it... only me

3 years ago we had something in mind

3 years later its only my memory

3 years ago i woke up crying and i spoke with you

3 years later i wake up wishing i'd speak with you

3 years ago you deligted my eyes

3 years later its my mind, my eyes cant see you

3 years ago i said thanks God she makes me happy

3 years later i say thanks God she is happy now

3 years ago passed so fast

3 years later seems forever

3 years ago we were planning our happy forever

3 years later Im trying to feel happy forever

3 years ago i said i'd never forget you

3 years later i say i need you out my mind to move forward

3 years ago i spent valentines in love

3 years later i hate valentines

3 years ago i shared my secrets with you

3 years later i keep my secrets for myself

3 years ago i promised

3 years later i cant

3 years ago it was tuesday

3 years later i'd never thought saturday was goodbye

3 years ago i was wishing i could go to the future

3 years later i wanna go back 3 years

3 years ago i was kid playing like a man

3 years later i am man playing like a kid

3 years ago it was hello

3 years later it is goodbye

3 years ago seems too little

3 years later is too much

it's almost 3 years since we had to say goodbye.

I'll never forget the fights, the crying, the emotions, the laughter, the deceptions, the mystery, the tension, the happiness we had.

Although you moved forward and reached the goal of life sooner than me, i'll keep walking the track, i'll keep moving forward, i'll try not to look back, cus it scares me.

i need you back

Forever yours

J

Mi Linda Primavera

Mi tierra linda con olor a tierra mojada

Miro al cielo es el azul natural

No necesito viajar 5,000 millas para sentir el calor

Ni subir el everest para sentir el frio

Es mi bella primavera, mi hogar, mi mas dulce estrella

No importa donde este parado, no puedo vivir de ella separado

El sabor latino colonial, la metropoli corazon muy leal

Con los negros tamboreando en el norte con su sabor mas marcado que el azucar

Y mis lindas inditas trabajan sin cesar, haciendo de todo sin parar

Y los machos inditos a trabajar, recogiendo azucar, cafe y frijol

Y su ciudad con los trabajadores que viven sin control.

La reputacion es exterior lo que vale esta por dentro, la gente linda, la que me mantiene contento.

Y pienso sin parar es mi bella Guate casa del quetzal el maya, el inca, garifuna y el gringo

Con su atolito por la tarde y una gallito al terminar

De este mi pais tan bello te tenes que enamorar

All i want

I want to tell you the lovely you look today

I want to tell you how i miss you tonight

I want to tell you who you are

I need to tell you are my love

Pretty lady, you make me fly

Pretty baby, it's me who's about to cry

Because my lady i can't believe you make me so happy

My sweet lady i want to be

My sweet baby i need to be

I'm so crazy there's something in your eyes

That drags me away

Like a spanish guitar you take away

you make fly

with pretty voice i can fall asleep

as if two angels were carrying me away

i cant belive that someone like you

could see someone like me

i mean its not true

so hard to believe

everyday i think on the possiblility

of a lifetime with you

i want you in my life and makes me shiver

All i want is you

My first dedication :D

The first time.....the first time.....the first....

I guess I would say: EVERYtime....EVERYday....EVERY way, not just the first, YOU MAKE MY DAYS!

Even though, lately, they've been gray.

Maybe we don't talk much sometimes...but believe me, even though you're on the other side of chat, somehow, you make me smile.

You understand EACH WORD, you make me listen when I'm wrong, and you let me know when I'm right.

I can't ask for more, I'm just thankful that everyday i'm knowing more....more bout u're life, more bout u're ways...more bout that little guy that will heal my heart!

With pure friendship, pure laughter, pure joy, pure peace, pure LIFE....

I can't ask for more, I would say...

I'm just calmed in my way cause I know that I'm all set in your way. I don't need more, but I do wanna know you more.

Please let's NOT take a brake...let's make this bigger so I can be awake and say:

THIS FRIENDSHIP WILL MAKE IT THROUGH ANYTHING IN ANY WAY!

JNFR.CBR

The first time

The first time i saw you i couldnt believe it

The first we spoke, made me fly so high

The first time i saw your face i thought i was not alive

because i swear i saw an angel in your eyes

The first time that i called you, made me stammer

The first time that you opened your heart made me proud of myself

Let me be the one who loves like no one has loved you before

Let me be the first time you really feel the love

Let us be the first time, the world knows what is love

This is the first i think i am inlove

playful, thoughtful, fool

After you spend over a year you realize that you always waste your time in useless things.

you place your heart in jeopardy everytime you get passionate about something.

helping wrong people, in wrong circumstances, with wrong expectations.

You always expect people to give you the credit after they stand up after they fell.

but they dont they always blame their own greedy necesity to auto-praise their selfish pride.

As my own experience i like to say that i always wait for a person to "share" these false expectations with me, but again i realize its no more than a selfish greed of myself too.

how can it be? i tell people what to do, it seems i fix their problems, but i dont even know how to fix my own problems....

i've made couples fix their issues, with advices that u expect from a elder 40-year married person... and yet it's from a young stupid kid.

and when they fix their issues i think... how can it be? i wish i had those issues to fix.

wrong expectations, wrong timing, wrong moments. stupid me.

as depressing as it sounds i'd like to affirm i'm not depressed, yet dissapointed.

I don't even feel this as a "pain" it's normal. It's curiosity.

Am i too young?

Am i placing my heart in a wrong place?

Is it God, playing with me? testing... to see how much i'm gotta be able to hold it?

HOLD MY BREATH! dont say a word! dont even think about it!

write about it

about a wounded kid, not physical wounds, not spiritual, but shallow non deep cold-burning scratches.

I give up on human love, i give up on human hope, i give up on reality.

And as if it's never gonna end...

the end